I Still Get Trashed When I Hear Your Tunes

Lana Del Rey “Terrence Loves You”

Lana Del Rey keeps writing essentially the same ballad about doomed love with distant, charismatic men, but in her endless iteration, she finds new extremely specific emotions to express in song. The feeling in “Terrence Loves You” is so precise that it’s difficult to put into words, but you hear the way her voice trills on “I lost myself when I lost youuuuu” and deepens slightly on “I still get trashed, darling, when I hear your tunes,” and it’s almost painful to recognize it. It’s such a hopeless form of love, a sort of love that’s built on feeling like you’re never good enough, and grateful for whatever scraps of affection you can get from some person you’ve decided is totally magical. But it’s also the sound of finding comfort in feeling so small in relation to someone else, and wanting in some way to be consumed by their identity. It’s falling in love as a way of hiding from yourself.

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