May 22nd, 2026 12:34am
What Am I Leaving Behind Me?
Car Seat Headrest “1937 State Park” (Joe’s Story Version)
Car Seat Headrest have re-recorded “1937 State Park” along with the rest of Teens of Denial (give or take a few songs), so I should follow suit and write a new post about that song, right? Not exactly a tall order given that it’s one of my top favorite songs from the 2010s.
I’m a little surprised by my emotional response in my original post from May 2016. I was identifying a lot more with the character in the song, and being a little hard on a past version of myself I don’t remember so clearly today.
It also captures the feeling of being a particularly cynical and depressive sort of teenage boy, right on down to the line about avoiding graveyards because they’re a cliché of his “death-obsessed generation,” which is funny to me because I was exactly the sort of teen to extrapolate way too much from random people I knew just to find new ways to be snobby as an excuse to opt out of social situations. “Ah, I hate my generation, so obsessed with death!” Sure, dude! Whatever. Meanwhile you’re the guy singing about feeling a pressure to commit minor crimes so you can act out a “live fast, die young” narrative.
Now the song strikes me as more obviously comedic, a portrait of a depressed teenager who’s fantasizing about how he’ll be remembered after he dies young. He’s dreaming of being a Kurt Cobain type figure, but doesn’t seem particularly interested in the part where you write songs and play in a band. It’s just a daydream about wanting to be thought of as cool in retrospect, and awkwardly willing his life to match the narrative beats of a young punk tragedy. (“I can’t commit to a crime to commit, I need to get one done for the biography.”)
The kid in this song – presumably the Joe character who’s positioned as the protagonist in other songs on the record – is so recognizable and poignant. He’s at a stage of youth where emotions run hot, and ideas are big but not fully formed. Being perceived matters more at this time than being understood, and being understood feels impossible. But of course anyone with any sort of perspective understands what’s going on in their head.
I think this recording of “1937 State Park” is superior to the original version, and that’s true of the other more rocking songs that have been remade for this revised album. The band have played these songs many times over and have found subtle ways to improve the dynamics without many substantial differences to the music. It’s the same thing, but with maybe 20% more punch to it.
Will Toledo’s vocal is very close to the original take but a little more confident in his phrase, a tiny bit bolder when he sings out. I imagine this song feels different to him in his early 30s, with a lot more distance from being a teen. He sounds dialed into the extremes in this recording – the wry parts slightly more dry in tone, but he sounds more wounded and discouraged as he sings the chorus. The first time around the emotions seemed to fall on an even plane, but there’s more of a sharp contrast between the parts that are cringe for humorous effect and the parts that are connecting with genuine shame.
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